The Fear

the pain of the cold that moves up and down my spine ending at the base of my skull leaves an uneasy feeling of sadness and inability in my head accompanied with the knowledge that it wont be all right in the end. feelings will be hurt. people will change. the anger and fear that is mixing in my body is a volatile mix spiraling out of control. and with no substance its not tangible so to understand it is to be those emotions roiling out of control and only being held back the fear of the unknown the possibility that things will get worse instead of better. so i sit here and wilt in my chair as i look up at the screen and see that there is no hope