I should just keep my mouth shut

Apparently im not being nice. apparently im being a dick. well... odds are im being a dick. but im trying to help. i help by opening your eyes. not closing them. if its little things like your lactose intolerant. yes ill give a shit and say don't eat milk based things. but if its breakdowns or extreme sadness. i will give a shit but i wont tell you its going to be nice and happy. im going to try and help you learn. you dont seem to want to learn. you don't internalize it. you just say HI!!! your not fun! Bye!. and thats it. you think its some huge process. its not. your letting your life where very little is wrong get to you. your grandma is on dialysis. shes old. she had a good run. let go. your dad had back surgery. OK. that's great. try living with a 60 year old diabetic mood swinging over achieving nosy prick. you were over the other day when my mom was making me review. imagine that every day for that past 8 years. my dog is going to die almost any day now. yes ill be super sad but i wont let it get in the way of my life. ill mourn for about a week or so. then move on. i have life to live, you do to. don't let things that really arnt that big of a deal get you down. you have a life to live. whether its with me or not. as long as your alive. Whenever i try and help it is never seen as help until at least years down the road or you are to fucked up in the head to see what im doing. so i dont expect you to like what im saying or to think "oh he might have a point" i lived through harder shit than you. i realise that your much more family oriented than me. you actualy have a family that just "talks" to you. one that realises that you arnt what they want you to be all the time. mine is constantly... i dont think its worth getting into that you were over the other day. i think you have a good idea. and the phone call just this morning. you remember how long i was standing outside just waiting for my mom to shut up about nothing. i cant have a normal conversation with my parents without it turning to school work. it just doesnt happen. seeing as how these are just words on a screen i dont think this will affect you to badly. seeing as how odds are you wont even read this for about another month. unless kiz or someone tells you about it. why cant you just live with things? wake up and say hello life i hate you. and then carry on with your day. just leave it at that. say it out loud if you need to. just all this sadness is getting in the way of your life. im gonna stop before i stay up the whole night.